Update

My computer is not working again. We went to the car show. Dan entered his model cars and won 1st place. Yeah ! The boys earned $100.00 each towards their Canada Trip. Eddie Ray was such a hard worker for his brothers.

Honor Roll

Ricky made Honor Roll for this nine weeks!! Yeah!! This is the picture he drew for my wall of Love in my bedroom. This is what he invisions us to have looked like when he was an infant. I think it is a wonderful drawing. He just started art classes. He is new to drawing people. I think it is an excellent start. Hopefully this will keep him engaged.

The Happy Ending

We started the week off with a tax return and happy thoughts of buying a camaro and trading off the van. Then we left the boys alone for less than an hour. And Ricky deciedes since someone let him drive at seven, he's a good driver. Even though no keys to the van were left in this house. He was gonna drive so he jammed my Monte Carlo keys in my Dodge Caravan. He didn't succeed in driving the van. But I now own a van where the ignition was so destroyed the ignition can't be removed. So where I was getting $500 for the van I now am hoping for $50 since you can't start the van. So, we praying for a new car with our meager down payment. Dan came home with a 2001 Mustang. Oh just in case your wondering... Ricky now has to have a babysitter at 14, has lots of chores, owes is parents alot of money, walks to school... Oh yeah and no permit or at least a year. Possibly can get it at 18, if things don't change.

So it's a very happy ending For Dan except now he has 2 more car payments then he would have had. So now you can call him my Mustang Man!

Thge Makeover

My Neice Alyssa did a fabulous makeover for me. Too bad I don't have the patience to Straighten my own hair. I've tried, she does a much better job. Isn't she beautiful.

Life is Good

I'm just excited to be alive today! Can't really explain why- spring fever maybe. But I've waited soooo long to feel this good again. Even Rick and I sat down to a heart to heart today. It went so well. I have this huge urge to just go out and do something fun for a day. I guess that will have to wait til Friday. But oh well. I must admit I hope this feeling stays.

A Mother's Tears

I can't believe I'm even blogging about this, but I'm hoping for some suggestions. I have a son whom I love very much who is fighting the same old demons he has always fought. They have just intensified again. He struggles with believing he is lovable and worth loving. He doesn't seem to have strong feelings or attachments to anything. I've found through counseling he feels closest to me. Yet he can't be honest with me. He doesn't believe that he deserves to be happy. He blames himself for mistakes adults in his life have made. And it breaks my heart. He understands his family loves him. But there is this part of him that just believes he is not worth loving. He pulls stunts just to prove he is unlovable. I just wish there was some magic pill to take away his unhappiness, to see that life is for enjoying. Any ideas would be appreciated.

Interview with 6 year old

1. What is something Mommy always says to you?No
2. What makes Mommy happy?kisses when we clean the house
3. What makes Mommy sad?when Ricky smokes
4. How does Mommy make you laugh?Tickling me
5. What was Mommy like as a child?I don't know
6. How old is Mommy?40
7. How tall is Mommy?9 ft tall
8. What is Mommy's favorite thing to watch on TV?Desperate Housewives
9. What does Mommy do when you're not around?Take a rest
10. If Mommy becomes famous, what will it be for?watching the news
11. What is Mommy really good at?reading
12. What is Mommy not very good at?watching tv
13. What does Mommy do for her job?look for people in the halls'
14. What is Mommy's favorite food?Spaghetios
What makes you proud of Mommy?When she kisses Daddy
16. If Mommy were a cartoon character, who would she be?Donald Duck
17. What do you and Mommy do together?watch tv and read and snuggle
18. How are you and Mommy the same?I do not know
19. How are you and Mommy different?who knows I won't be a mom
20. How do you know Mommy loves you? Snuggles
21. What does your mom like most about your dad?When they kiss
22. Where is Mommy's favorite place to go?Red Lobster
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1. What is something Daddy always says to you?Shut up
2. What makes Daddy happy?motorcycle
3. What makes Daddy sad?when I don't shut up
4. How does Daddy make you laugh?when he says shut up.
5. What was Daddy like as a child?boring cause he had to to school
6. How old is Daddy?615000 years old
7. How tall is Daddy?45 ft he's just like big momma
8. What is Daddy's favorite thing to watch on TV?star Trek
9. What does Daddy do when you're not around?goes on a date with mom
10. If Daddy becomes famous, what will it be for?kissing
11. What is Daddy really good at?spankings
12. What is Daddy not very good at?watching tv
13. What does Daddy do for his job?sets up things for cattle congress
14. What is Daddy's favorite food?pizza
15. What makes you proud of Daddy?16. If Daddy were a cartoon character, who would he be?A Rudolf deer17. What do you and Daddy do together?play18. How are you and Daddy the same?daddy is not the same because he's a boy19. How are you and Daddy different?our hair looks different and we have different sizes20. How do you know Daddy loves you?because he says that all the time21. What does your Dad like most about your Mom?They dance together22. Where is Daddy's favorite place to go?to work